Trust In Dreams-

Sunday, March 23, 2008

It is all over.. months of deep thinking which is driving me crazy.. It all ended finally on a bad note.. I don't know how I should feel. Relieved because I don't have to worry whether we will quarrel the next minute anymore? Disappointed because 4 years of friendship just ended because of the word "shallow"? Perhaps all these should end earlier. My mind was in a blank when I saw the last sentence. How should I even react? I intend to clear things up before you enter ns, before you change into another person. well.. things didn't turn out well and I sort of expected it. When I saw your last sentence, I know that it is really time to let go of this friendship because nothing else can put things back the right way. Nothing.

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Friday, March 21, 2008

back from east coast! It was a fun day with the usual bunch of people. haha. After 10 years of not blading, I still manage to blade la.. just that I fell down 3 times. lol. Nevertheless, I still manage to enjoy myself la. Celebrated jian xin, yong huang and jun gang bdae in the evening at kallang. I ate alot for dinner lor. super bloated. hahaha.

the guys know their posting already. Some will be away for 3 weeks, some will be away for 2 weeks. haiz. another BMT-alike situation again.

My right arm is aching as I had to carry my blades to east coast and back from east coast. damn heavy la.

* Perhaps it is really true that the more I try to lie to myself that this will never happen, the more I see things/people related to this issue. Sometimes I really hope that after a long night of sleep, things will return back to normal and I wouldn't think so much anymore. I really don't want history to repeat itself. I don't think I can take another similar blow anymore *

logged on @ 11:21 PM

work yesterday was busy as usual, or even busier than normal days. The day starts with the preparation of agm docs. Just when i start to flip the pages of the financial statements, manager calls for me to solve bizcube problems. try hard to understand what the hell is wrong so that I can start to email the bizcube ppl. Back to agm docs. suddenly halfway through my typing of AGM documents, the phone rings and calls for me to go up to the 47th floor to solve bizcube problems encountered by one colleague. Manager wants me to help her take printer drum from 47th floor. hmm.. when I begin to solve the problems, another colleague comes and tell me another problem. Then, the phone rings and calls for me to find secretarial file on 47th floor for the 3rd floor ppl. well, 4 tasks at hand, multitasking begins. When I got back to 3rd floor, I see more financial statements on my desk. It means more AGM docs to do. sianz. Interruptions are everywhere. I have been going up and down for like god knows how many times trying to replace toner with drum (printer stuffs), return drum, collect/return FS and mails, even help the 47th floor ppl post mails. woahz. madness. ultra madness. Congrats to Felicia who will be taking over bizcube stuffs after I leave. Good Luck mann.

I managed to talk to wenqi about my personal stuffs during lunch. It just get worse after telling her. I don't know how long more can I avoid this issue.

Anyway, on the bright side of the day, I went shopping after work with kenneth, alvin and lea yee for presents. hahaha. hmm.. quite "exciting" to go out shopping with them today. Seriously, I think we should use the traffic lights to cross the road next time instead of risking our lives la. tsktsk! Luckily, I was wearing slippers la. If I wear heels, I will definitely have lots of blisters.

I am looking forward to roller blading and cycling outing later in the afternoon at East Coast! The only sad thing is most of the girls cannot make it tmr. Only 2 girls can make it in the afternoon. haiz. I can almost imagine what is going to happen tmr afternoon. the guys shall go damn fast and throw shu ting and me behind. lol.

arghh.. I spend money on clothes today again.

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